January's gone.

I can't believe how a month had passed. January is practically gone. Just like that, like a blink of an eye. And what have I done so far? Nothing much. Nothing productive. Nothing worth to even mention about. Progress? Hah.

I deserve a slap on the face after today. I really do. Only a page essay for timed assignment? There's no excuse this time cause time is not to be blamed. My slow writing, my inability to brainstorm fast and bullshit my way off, my poor language, and the messed up points in my indecisive head. That pretty much sums up the reasons behind my fucked up one paged essay.

That's not all. The Maclaurin test on the last period. How can I not remember that damn standard formula after practising on it just weeks before? I think out of the 25 minutes paper, I could only get that measly 2 marks for that simple shown question.

This serves as a reminder to me. Of how complacent and ignorant I've been for the month of January, ah heck, the previous months as well. And today, I can say that I'm demoralised for the first time this year. I guess this was the 'feeling'. The sense of hopelessness, the dispirited sensation, that my persistent gp tutor kept insisting we should feel in order for us to start our engines roaring. And how true he is.

From today onwards, I will be a better student. I will not be a sloth that I am and (I hope) was, and mug hard. I will do whatever it takes. And I know its gonna be hard cause saying it all is easy really, but to take action is a hundred times harder.

Timeline.

(Clockwise from top left: R-J-R-CH-SQ-A)

Sorry guys, I just have to put up your spastic faces taken by J up here to share with everyone. I'm sure you're gonna laugh at it as much as I did. Hah!

Anyway, this week marks the third week since school resumed. I was relieved that we had the four days break due to the chinese new year festive. I was contemplating on going out on one of the days but I eventually brushed off the idea since I've plenty of school work to deal with. Besides, there's few meet ups all lined up for the week after and I rather get my work done by this week at least. So, the four day break that should be spent wisely on work was, well, failed. Cause silly me just had to procrastinate a whole lot and spent the time (wisely indeed) on the much needed sleep. Now I'm back at square one. Hahha.

Moving on, I was just browsing through my old photo albums. From kindergarten to primary school, to life in Fajar, and till now. I swear I almost had a fit laughing at each photo as I vividly recalled the memories that was triggered. One disastrous or pretty much embarrassing event to another. Hahha. And I realised, I miss them all. The moments in the past. The many friends I had lost touched with, and also those growing apart and still do now even as I type all these down. It's a bit sad though, but that's the fact of life I guess. It's not that my current life sucks now, albeit life in J2 sucks. School rocks with the good company yo! It's just that it's different. It's all different than the last time.

I can see the major changes that took place, the different phases in my life. Like, literally see. And I'm sure as hell that there's bound to be more changes up ahead. Especially so in the unprecedented future. I have to admit, it's kind of scary. Scary in a good way eh. But ironically, I'm anticipating it. For whatever there is to come.

Alright, enough of my gibberish. Enjoy the rest of the four day break people. And I shall attempt(hardy har har) my undone/untouched assignments. Happy Chinese New Year to the chinese folks!

I need more than a glimpse of you.

Funny shit.

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My siblings showed me this cartoon which is super hilarious. It's kind of sadistic in a way, but it's soo true. Hahha. This one is my ultimate favourite cause it's about the useless mats in our society. You have to listen to the mat sing(the song's in malay tho). There's two others that are quite funny also, the student one and the ah beng cartoon, so just click on the link. I highly recommend teachers out there to watch the student cartoon. Stress reliever perhaps? Lol.

Alright, laugh your ass off people.

Phew.

Alas the weekend has arrived! You have no idea how relieved I am to finally be able to catch a breath and some well deserved sleep. It's only the first week of school and I'm already worn out. It's not that my timetable this year is super sucky or anything like that. In fact, most of the school days my classes end surprisingly early and I'm soo very thankful for that. But because of the piling assignments and deadlines, I've been sacrificing the much needed sleep. And that explains the unavoidably growing-permanent fugly eyebags. Tsk.

And for the first time, I didn't touch my notebook for a good whole week. Hah! It's that busy. Even my cat is craving for my attention since she tries to grab my leg everytime she sees me. Well I have to say, I have a pretty good feeling for what's to come. I thank god for finally getting me a whole set of good tutors this year. It's the best way to start the new school year. Lol. And yes, the company in school is as awesome as usual.

Now back to sleep, and resume work thereafter.
Much loves cyberworld.

Complacency gets you nowhere, and that's the problem with us all.

Not making any sense.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

In approximately eight hours time, schools gonna start! I can't believe this but i'm scared. Super scared! Pre school jitters ah.

So I should sleep right, like now. Cause my body clock is still as screwed since it's attuned to waking up super late and sleeping in even later. But but but, there's the Manchester United vs Chelsea game at midnight! So how can I sleep now?! Cannot! That match is a MUST WATCH!

Hahahha. God, I sound like a minah man. I don't know which part made me sound like that, but it made me sound like them minahs! Hahha. Kay kay, clearly i'm not in the right mind now cause i'm talking gibberish.

So, tata. Good luck to me on the first day of school. Pfft.

Goodbye, Travis.

My loves, and I heart them all =))

Thusday was the farewell lunch at Swensens for our dear Ryan since he's leaving us for America. And the next morning was his flight, which I couldn't make it since I had to be in school by eight for that goddamn stupid open house that not even a miserable soul turned up for (Yes, it was that pathetic and I won't talk about it). Nevertheless, I had bid my goodbye to him. But stupid me forgot to take a last photo with him before he left. Sigh.

He should be all settled there by now. I'm like soo gonna miss him once school starts man cause it won't be the same like last year with the rest. He better read my card on the plane like I told him to. Hahha. Ahh, can't wait to see him in December!

Come back soon okay, Travis? =)

Blackhole.

I think my emotions have sort of went overdrived. Cause lately, every little thing provokes me. Even the littlest things can get me into the state of delirium. It's either delight/despair, emo/high, or i'm-super-happy-so-join-in-the-fun/shut-the-fuck-up-asshole. Emotions are at its extreme. I can't say I've never felt like this before cause I do. And in addition to that, it gets me even incensed when I don't even know what's the possible probable cause of all this.

Sigh.

I think the starting of school is getting onto me. And the uncompleted holiday assignments. And also, the fact that there's a whole lot of things that needs to be done before A's resumes. Ya ya spare me the whole its-only-the-beginning-of-the-year-and-that-you'll-have-plenty-of-time shit. Cause frankly speaking, it doesn't have the slightest bit of comfort. I'm thinking ahead and I can't help it so shoot me.

There are certain things I have set my mind to do, but it just doesn't happen. Shoot me man, shoot me.

Sigh.

Hyelp!

I'm freaking out. I'm freaking myself out.
I need to talk to someone,





Fast.