Monday, March 30, 2009

Conflicted.

I guess it all boils down to what I'm feeling right now. There's so many different emotions of varying degrees, conflicting with one another that I thought would never ever be possible. I want to pour it all out, but I just can't find the right words. Ya get what I'm saying?

And one things for sure, I'm trying to brush off this accumulating hatred cause I don't wanna be a despicable comrade. Nuff said.

You know what they all say, "You just have to wake up at the right moment". But tell me this, WHEN is the fucking right moment goddammit?

Someone, enlighten me on this one, puhhleasee.
Told you I'm conflicted.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Feel the need.

The clique.

Yesterday, went out with the clique to unwind ourselves after the week long torment. We just feel the need to celebrate the temporary liberation before all the nightmare starts again. And hell yeah we did! We watched 'The Unborn' since I insisted we watched a horror movie cause I wanted to scare the shit out of myself. And oh boy, how well that turned out. Hahha.

It was actually quite funny cause not only were the girls screaming, the boys had their fair share also. Pussy sia you guys. Hahhahaha. But the movie was beyond my expectation cause usually the only scary movies are the thai horrors. Oh and you know what, all of us had the post-horror movie effects cause all of us kept on imagining things and really do scare the shit out of ourselves. Some can't even sleep that night cause they got too scared. You know who you are! Hah! And apparently, I was not the only one who got scared while showering this morning and looking at the bathroom mirror. Hahahha.

Alright enough about horror, some snapshots to horrify you! You know we love to camwhore! Nyehnyeh.




Pun of the day by boey: "How far, is asfa?"
Hahhahhaha.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Crest fall en.

Blocktest was a nightmare. I am soo not looking forward to seeing my crappy answer scripts cause I pretty much screwed all my papers. I can't remember the various reaction reagents and conditions for chem. I can't comprehend what macro econs is all about. And I still can't see the link for globalisation in geog. I don't know man. Am I screwed or what?

The only consolation I can get is that I'm not the only one and that there's others in the same situation. But somehow, this does not make me feel any better at all.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
Star program. Ahhh.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Meditate.

Inflamed throat. Annoyingly persistent coughs. On and off fever. And drowsiness. The best feeling you could ever get right before your major tests. It's becoming a ritual. How ironic.

I'm soo screwed. How am I suppose to cover everything before next week? I'll need at least a 48 hour per day man, if that is ever possible. So Dear God, help me fill in all those ghastly and merciless theories/formulas/facts&figures inside my really, extremely to the max, stubborn head. And also, make bnd appear out of nowhere again, just like the other time! I'm bereft of motivation. =(

My 33 bucks better get me well before Monday, doc.
Ciao. Happy studying people!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Cause I don't want you to know, who I am.

Imagine.
6 hours of organic chemistry, back to back.
And I'm still sane.


Or not.

Ho ho ho.

Etwos.

2E2 - All grown up!


My weekends were rather pointless and unproductive. I pretty much wasted the entire weekend. But it's alright, there's still time. I'll compensate the lost time on another day.

School work aside, meet up with the fajar gang for dinner on sunday. It was nostalgic man. Hahha. I can't believe how much I miss each and everyone of them! And all of their nonsense! Okay, maybe not Shi hui's violent but unpredictable 'attacks' (eh my jaw pain leh! your elbow ah!). Hahhahaha. It's good to finally be able to catch up with one another and reminisce the old times man. How can I forget I got hit on the jaw by a flying presumably dead snail? And of course the pungent decomposed leftover food from home ec lesson that was left for weeks in the classroom? Everybody almost puked man. Hahhhaha. Totally classic. Good ol' times man, good ol' times.

Alright, more meet ups okay people(provided i'm free ah =D)! Meanwhile, more pics will be uploaded once I get them, either here or FB.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

19th.

Zaza's toothsome cupcakes!

A big fat thank you to all for all your birthday wishes and hugs! Be it through sms, facebook, msn or wishing it personally to me! The thing is, I didn't expect it from some of you. I truly feel loved! Hahhaha.

And of course, surprises after surprises. It really did come about as a surprise this time, unlike last year when my adorable mom gave it all away. You people should know what I'm talking about. Hahha.

First up, late surprise lunch at Swensens with the three ravishing ladies - Pam, Siti and Fadilah. We had to settle for a late lunch since Pam had soccer and I had to go for MC. Anyway, thank you girls for celebrating my birthday! And also the gifts you guys got for me! I really do love it all!

Lunch @ Swensens - F.A.P.S.


Next up, surprise massive snacks in the locker! Thank you to my two favourite bimbos - Van & Amanda, and Russ & Qi, for the different snacks of different flavours. Don't worry, I'll bring the snacks for all of us to eat during lecture okay! Oh and yea, thank you Ravin for chasing out that big fat squirmy lizard out of the locker. That damn lizard gave me a pleasant surprise as well. I hope my shrieks of disgust wasn't conspicuous to any, especially those having cca in the track or field near the locker. Hahhaha.

And finally, a big fat thank you to my homies for the surprise later that night! The cupcakes are too cute that I can't bring myself to eat it! Hahha. You know how much I love you both, nuff said.

And oh yes, to whichever siblings of mine who is reading my blog discreetly, a big fat thank you for the awesome limited addition Puma watch! I love you! =D

Alright, gotta sleep. Gp blocktest tomorrow.
I'm in a deep shit.

Saturday, March 07, 2009

Optimism.

I'm totally terrified of whats to come.
But I'm motivated. Yes, I am.

Sunday, March 01, 2009

Unclear.

Sometimes I questioned the choices I make in life. And the 'what ifs'.
Sigh. I'm stressed. And the rain is soo not helping. It's making me depressed.