I say.

Screwed, is my middle name.
Le sigh.

Five people, four hours.

I think I look real geeky with my new black Levi's specs that my dad just blew 300 bucks for. What can I say? I have expensive taste for fine products like this one? Hahaha.

Study session at republic poly earlier on. Okay, it wasn't just a study session ah. That, I have to admit. There was a hell lot of humour man that I almost teared from laughing. Hahha. I was anxious as we stepped into their territory with us all wearing the school uniform. Some were practically staring daggers at us(even from the bus interchange!), wondering what the heck these bunch of jc kids were doing at their territory. I swear if there is ever a fight that's gonna break out due to whatever known logical reasons, I won't be scared. Cause we have a muay thai fighter, cheerleaders and hockey player! Eh okay, I dunno whats the cheerleaders' gonna do ah but at least they're there? Hahha.

And sorry sexy we just had to prank you. It's a one time thing so please don't be paranoid and continue sulking. We are still your true friends! Hahaha =D. And and there was no mastermind. Everyone had a role to play so you people can stop pointing fingers to each other okay? Nyehnyeh. Anyhoo, you guys should watch the video once it's been uploaded on facebook. It's funny shit, I SWEAR.

Alright, as much as I hate this, back to the books!

My future?

		I will marry M.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Stolkholm, Sweden in our fabulous House.
		We will have 9 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a lime green subaru.
		I will spend my days as a fashion designer, and live happily ever after.

WAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
HOW I WISH MAN, HOW I WISH. =D

Change will come.

Starbucks is sucking me dry man. Really, it does. Maybe I should stop leeching for a space there and get my butts seated in the civics library man. Time for a change man, time for a change.

I've been thinking. I've been thinking a whole lot. There's this uncertainty in me. The uncertainty of what is to come. What the future holds. At the rate I'm going, I should be worried of the consequences of my actions, and how it's gonna affect me later. Chances of getting into a decent university is undeniably tough. Even if you get a relatively decent grade, it's not enough. It's never enough. For instance, to get into Architecture in NUS, seemed like an impossible move. From what I heard, the recent intake was what, 200? And the number of malays that was admitted, was relatively low. Only an odd handful. This goes to show that it's highly competitive out there.

But what am I doing now? I know the facts. I've heard other's woes. I've seen what I have to see these past few months. But what am I fucking doing right now?

I can't keep on kicking up an excuse to why I'm behaving like this. I'm not oblivious to the facts out there. I guess I choose to ignore it. Turn a deaf ear. Be contented. Be complacent. Succumb to my illogical and unacceptable tendencies to do the wrong things. I can't keep running away from this. From all of this. I know I should do something about it. Aw heck, my instincts are telling me to start taking actions. Start now, when I still have the time. There's a gazillion of things to do, to keep me fucking busy for the next six months. But, I can't get my ass moving. I haven't really started the engines. I tried but I can't! What is wrong with me? Seriously?

I talked to my hommie today, and boy am I glad that I did. She's right. Whatever she said is totally right. I have to start planning. To plan smart on the things I should be doing, somewhat like a target for the major A's. And yes hommie, adam khoo's worshop sucks man. Hahha. But that's besides the point. I have to start taking actions. It's seriously easy to say so but to actually do it, is bloody, annoyingly difficult.

I have to find various source of motivation. To keep me going, to keep me focused on the things that I should be doing, to get the things I want to achieve. Regret is the last thing I want to ever feel at the end of this year, like how it was for me about two years back. I am determined. But I guess my determination is always short-lived. I really envy those who could set their minds at something and go all out to get it done. I have to learn from them. I have to buck up, pull my socks and start getting things done. And stop coming up with lame ass excuse on whatever i could think of.

I'm just mad at myself. And I'm trying hard to battle all this. They're right. I'm conflicted. I need a whole lot of motivation people. And I know I can count on my hommies(thankshommiesloveyouallloads!) for that, classmates and dedicated tutors for that matter.

I want this badly. I really want this badly.
And it has to begin with, me. Wake up.

Tomayto tomahto.

I think facebook is evil. And while I'm at it, I think the internet is evil too. This is because I'm always running back to the notebook for god knows what, and ends up wasting precious time. I won't console myself cause if I did, I'ld continue to do what I'm doing.

Which is bad, you see. Bad. A big fat disaster awaits if I'm still stubborn to succumb to my procrastinating susceptibilities. Hahha.

Maz's 19th.

Dinner and games @ Mind Cafe

Mind Cafe with the loved ones on sunday night was fun! I'm pretty sure all of us laughed our ass out loud till the other patrons were looking at us. Hahha. And it's surprising how we managed to struggle between eating our food and playing the game. And taking photos as well! Multi-tasking man, you gotta learn how to multi-task. Lol.

The unfamiliarity of the game was the fun part. Out of all the games we played, I like the 'The Wrong Game' the most cause all of us were pretty much shouting the random answers in out head! Like for instance how Jeremy kept on shouting "PIG!" to all the questions which was irrelevant of course, and the most common one was when the rest of us were answering the questions correctly when in fact it was suppose to be answered wrongly. And this somewhat happened when it was my turn to ask the questions. I can't remember who said what though, but I know Jin hui said the last one! Lol.

"What do you bring with you for camping?"
"TOILET"
"Correct!"
"Eh, cannot! How can you bring toilet for camping?!"
"Oh ya hor"
"Oh, oh! TOILET ROLL!"
"Correct!"
"Ey, cannot lah. Same like toilet what!"
"Then what?"
"PARENTS!"
"..."
"HAHAHAH!"

Ouh and of course, how could we ever forget how someone suck at playing UNO Stacko. No wait, any game for that matter! Hahha, just kidding! I still love you ah woman! =D

Moving on to today, study date with Prada Flamingo at Starbucks. A record of 6 hours? Nah, done more than that. It was pretty productive, I must say. More study dates okay, Prada? We have to grab Versace Vuitton as well! Lol. (Inside joke)

Alright, ton's of work to be done, but I'll need my sleep first! I think my bodyclock is screwed, literally. Kay, ta-ra.